Archive for March, 2008
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{ Tags: addams family values, auditions, bitterness, casting call, catty, deal or no deal, envy, extreme makeover, follow up, gardening, home edition, i love lucy, jealousy, joan cusack, life, Nevada, peppers, random, randy travis, snide, Sparks, spice, thoughts }
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I am off on a new endeaver! I have gone off the deep end and decided to plant a PEPPER GARDEN!!! Here’s Day One! Wish me luck. Mostly my gardening experience has taught me about the CIRCLE OF LIFE, as opposed to what I want to create this time. You plant them, you water them and care for them, and then they wither and die! No surprise right?
But maybe today or at the end of this all, I will have produced something that will last and continue. ???? We’ll see.
Speaking of things that will last and continue…
While my oldest is drawn to EM: Home Edition, I am not. I have been turned off the show. But sometimes, like tonight, I watch it. And then I get pissed off. ??? explain that Lucy!
I want to know what happened after the show! I want to know what they’ve done to the home 1 year later, 2 years later, are we on 3 years later yet? It’s not that I am without compassion….however, I look at the people around me. I look at my life. I look at my great great grandparents and think…. WHAT ABOUT THE REST OF US!!! We struggle. We strive. We yearn. (thank you Debbie Jellinsky!) Don’t we deserve these things too!?
You betcha. The difference is, is that I’m not putting my struggles out there for the world to see, ok, well wait, the blog thing, that’s totally different! I don’t want you to build me a new home. I don’t want you to pay off my mortgage or put my kids through college. The new car would be great, but I’ll pass.
I mean, for the love that is all that is holy — swiss cheese; Why waste the money on just those families in that community?!! Why not put the money to GREAT use and effect change for a whole community that benefits a whole community? because now look, that house stands out like a sore thumb! Now people are just going to be expecting to be able to walk through and take a tour just because they donated food at the local randy travis benefit concert so their kid could go to college.
I guess I’m a bit witchy today. I’ll be even more bitter, or not on Sun. 4/6. Because Sat 4/5 I plan to stand in line starting at 7:00 am wearing an adult diaper (maybe I’m joking) so that I can audtion for Deal or No Deal which is doing a casting call from 10-1 in Sparks, NV. Keep your fingers crossed! Maybe then I won’t be so bitter.
By the way, I could use some blinds for my place. I currently have some homemade curtains and comforters in my windows! Been almost 2 years. Yup, I think it’s time I break down and make the jump to blinds. I’ll snap a picture of that too.
Back on track — did you notice that the family of tonight’s EM:HE just happened to be extremely well dressed? Leather stylish jacket on mom. Couldn’t mom have gone without that and gotten some frumping but functional jacket that cost less? Wish I had thought to take the food from my kids’ mouths so that I could have a leather jacket that was in style!
{ March 30, 2008 @ 6:11 pm }
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{ Tags: aging, careers, children, empty nest, family, growing up, jobs, life, parenthood, parenting, random, teenagers, thoughts, work }
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OMG! It’s just about official. I’ll get my toe tag any day! My oldest child – ripe old age of 14, went and applied for a job today. She has an interview on Tuesday at 4:00 pm. Check back that day to make sure they’re not about to prep the ground for daisies.
I had to call some pals who have been in my life since before her birth so that they too may feel the minutes of their lives creep up on them and turn a few hairs gray long with mine.
I’ll never know if I’ll ever be ready for her to leave this nest. I think I’m suffering from empty nesters syndrome already. Does it ever get easier? OMG!! That means my dad is old too!! no no no… I just refuse to believe that.
But I know that I am old. I know that I have to trust her to try and go for what she wants. Trust me, it’s not about the fact that I’ll be spending time taking her to and fro for this job if she gets it. I mean, really, I already do that when she wants to go do things after school or on the weekends anyway. This isn’t any different, except, that maybe, I can’t follow her around all day and make sure that she makes it through the day un-scathed.
Can I? Do you think they’ll let me? After all, it is at a family fun park. Maybe I could just sit on the bench near by as I turn her 12 year old sister loose to enjoy the park and use that one as my excuse for being there. OH GOOD GOD PEOPLE!!! SHE COULD ACTUALLY AFFORD TO PAY FOR HER FIRST CAR IN TWO YEARS!!!
AGH!!!!
{ March 30, 2008 @ 9:06 am }
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{ Tags: abstract, art, creativity, family, glass fusing, guilt, life, memories, random, therapy, thought, time }
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Friday night – March 28, 2008
My family and I had an appointment for a GROUP THERAPY session. It’s called: Glass Fusing. We found the concept/opportunity at a pottery painting place local to us. I enjoy referring to it as therapy.
It gave us a chance to sit down together around a table w/out food doing something together but being able to let ourselves show through in our individual project. We chattered about the day. We chattered about the colors. We learned several new things!
How to cut glass was one of the things. One of the best things about it is now that we’ve taken the ‘class’, we can now do that whenever we feel like it, instead of only being limited to painting the pottery.
I feel guilty about a lot of things. And the biggest thing is that I feel like we don’t spend ENOUGH or even a bit of time with the kids or as a family. We have TV. We have our rooms. We have our books to get absorbed into. Yada yada yada. I have my job. etc etc etc. So, planning to go to the studio at least one time a month, while expensive (studio fee plus cost of piece you’re going to work on for a family of four), is something that I appreciate. We created a memory, not only in our own individual minds, but we will also be able to take our creation home. They’ll be ready this Monday after 3:00 pm. FANTASTIC!!
The image above happens to be mine. The plastic grid behind the piece is NOT part of tile I added glass to. And no, I haven’t learned how to get the whole tile on the page for you! I love color. I love being abstract. It’s a concrete representation of all the jumbled things in my brain! Sometimes I have to define things. Other times I just let things fall where they may.
If only I could afford to do this more than one time a month. But we’ve found other things we can do that don’t cost so much or anything at all. There’s a marina with a dog park, and maybe we’ll take the dogs out today with our kids today. There’s the big dog park or local museums and local flavor of things to do.
I want the quality time with my kids. I want the memories for when I’m old and gray. I want to be able to say, yes, I gave them everything I could PLUS time and an education of the world around us.
{ March 25, 2008 @ 8:52 pm }
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{ Tags: bitter apple, cards, comedy, dogs, dope, poker, poop, random, shit, thoughts, voices, weed }
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I was wondering about at work one day, and I work with dogs and people, but mostly dogs…and I had a moment of thought…(that’s dangerous)…but I started to envision the older dogs sitting around playing shuffle board or cards… like that famous painting of dogs playing poker… but, here’s the thing. They all love poop!
They think poop is the best thing ever. The worse part of my job is should someone else not be paying close attention to a dog that loves poop, it may go over and it may ROLL in it! YUCK. And then guess who has to clean it up….
But as I was scooping up poop one day, I could HEAR the dogs saying…. MAN! THIS IS SOME GOOD SHEEET! Dig the smell! Check the color! Do you see the consistency of this stuff! I bet I could roll it and smoke it with Snoop DAWG maaaann!
I couldn’t help myself. It reminded me of the a group of high schoolers talking about weed. And I could picture those dogs around the card table again. But this time, instead of cards, they were passing a blunt or weighing out POOP!!! Can you imagine that?!
I think I’m going crazy…or I’ve smelled the fumes too much. But they look depressed when I spray bitter apple on it and THEN go get the scoops. They realize they can’t stand the smell of Bitter Apple let alone the taste of it. So, it gives me a few more seconds of time to scoop it up.
Wish I had a picture of it for ya, but I don’t. Maybe someday, I’ll be a poop dealer! and we could use it to fuel our cars! Man, I’d be as rich as the local dope man!
{ March 25, 2008 @ 4:05 pm }
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{ Tags: children, dogs, law, life, misc, random, thoughts }
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What is it that people don’t understand about dogs and leashes and public parks, roads, etc.!!!??? I am an owner of dogs. I love dogs. I work with dogs. But what’s with the woman near my work that’s gone and gotten pissed off at me because I’ve called animal control on her lazy dumb ass?! I’m sorry, if I’m walking a client’s dog at a local park. Her dog runs across the street and approaches me and the dog I am walking. I’ve broken up many dog fights and scuffles, so I’m not worried about it. I know what I’m doing.
But pa – leez Bi otch, if I’ve told you once, I’m not telling you again….get your dog on leash and pick up it’s poop! Because this is a park where children slide down the slide and land in dirt. THEY DO NOT WANT TO SLIDE THROUGH PISS!! THEY DO NOT WANT TO LAND IN SHEEEE IT!!!
So, if you end up with a citation and you end up having to pay fees or get your dog taken away… blame yourself because you didn’t do what you knew you were supposed to do in the first place.
I love leash laws! Now, if only they would pass them for children!! Some of them just need it!
{ March 25, 2008 @ 4:00 pm }
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{ Tags: car parts, crimes, misc, nascar, random, thoughts }
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I bought two locking gas caps today. One for each vehicle. Little M-Fers from the neighborhood have been siphoning gas from cars. They didn’t get much from mine this morning. I was already on E. However, they got $26 worth of gas from the hubby’s truck.
That’s not the part that troubles me though. It’s the NASCAR ENDORSEMENT on the packaging.
So. What they’re trying to spoon feed me is that someone where out there on NASCAR vehicles, is a locking gas tank cap?!! Is that what they’re saying? I mean, at all those pit stops they make… someone is grabbing the key and unlocking those caps so they can put fuel in?
I just don’t see it.
{ March 24, 2008 @ 9:59 pm }
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{ Tags: britney spears, celebrities, childbirth, entertainment, gossip, J-Lo, jamie spears, jennifer lopez, life, motherhood, new, random, role models, thoughts, twins, writings }
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What is it about celebrities that catches my attention? What is it about them that makes me look and stare and gawk like a 10 year old girl at a 13 year old boy? I can tell you. If you really want to know.
They are a train wreck waiting to happen. I can’t NOT LOOK! You know something is going to happen. It’s not that I wish them ill will or want to be them. But, come one, sometimes I think that my 14 year old daughter is smarter than the 25 years old pop star. And you know what, I’m right.
Let’s talk Miss Brit. Gossip rag in the check out line on the front cover has a photo of her looking tore up. Tag line reads that her beau is cheating on her and she looks even more pregnant than normal. I DID NOT BUY THE MAGAZINE. Let me state that. I am actually sicken by the gossip displays.
What 25 year old, that has an education and an IQ that keeps her out of Special Ed, does not understand the word TROJAN!!! She is such a poor role model. The worst part is, some of the celebs go: I never asked to be a role model! Who said I should be a role model! I say, well, you obviously strive to be in the lime light and it’s not like we live in the dark ages, she knew from examples such as Madonna and Angelina and Mariah what the dangers of being a celebrity were. Look at the Spice Girls!
Moving on…. another magazine had J-Lo on the cover with her twins. What a pretty picture. Keep moving on. Another magazine had J-lo in the corner all glitz and glam with the tag line wondering how she lost the baby weight…. Um, Can You Say CHILDBIRTH — THE DELIVERY OF TWINS!!! Yup, that would drop the baby weight right quick considering now they are weighed on their own as individuals.
I know, it’s petty of me. But please. The woman has mass amounts of money and has a trainer and has an mommy’s aide, and she can afford to buy the specially made for her girdles and such.
Thankfully I don’t pitch my money at those magazines. Because if I hear about Little sister Spears and her pregnancy one more time, I’m gonna chuck and put the D channel on parental block.
{ March 23, 2008 @ 11:34 am }
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{ Tags: baptist, battle of the sexes, boys, church, education, girls, immaculate conception, life, opinions, random, sex, signs, statistics, tests, thoughts, writing }
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Newsflash…. Girls do better than the boys in English and Writing/Language Arts in the state of California.
Hummmm…..I’m not surprised. WHY? Because it was a widely known fact and in the news every other week that BOYS do better than the girls in MATH & SCIENCE. So, OBVIOUSLY, or with my jump in logical thinking, then GIRLS MUST BE BETTER THAN THE BOYS AT SOMETHING — and my conclusion had been, ENGLISH and WRITING.
DING DING DING!!! WE have a winner people!!! I mean really, look around at all the movies and even at our friends. I knew growing up that I did something better than the boys. They consistently had lower grade scores on homework assignments. They could barely string a sentence together or place the comma and periods in the correct spot.
I get a kick out of the fact that now I’m supposed to feel bad for the boys because they don’t conjugate a verb properly!
Did you ever have a church in the middle of your town that had one of those daily saying signs? I did. It was a Baptist church. It was at a major intersection. For almost 2 weeks straight I would see crap posted on it talking about the statistics of 1 in so many girls was have teen sex. 1 in so many girls had an STD. 1 in so many girls was sexually active by whatever age. 1 in so many girls would be pregnant by the age of whatever.
It toasted my cookies and made me sick. So much so, that I finally went in a chewed the pastor and church staff out. WHY?!! Because, do you think the girls were having sex by themselves? Did they manage to get an STD all by themselves!? Were these girls victims of the immaculate conception!! WOW!! HOLY F-G Sheeee It PEOPLE!!!
The next week’s posting on those boards had to do with respecting your elders and knowing when to keep your mouth shut. Go Figure. Why couldn’t the sign just say when services were? Or give us a piece of scripture to contemplate? Or remind us that God loves us?
I have no idea. But obviously, men and women have different opinions as to what should be said or posted for the public eye. The battle of the sexes never stops!
{ March 22, 2008 @ 9:34 pm }
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{ Tags: cesar chavez, children, education, essays, national holidays, ostrich, politics, random, san francisco, thoughts }
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I’m not sure what to say or feel about it. However, having been born and raised in California, I’m very familiar with the Cesar Chavez movement. I remember that a street had been named after him in San Francisco. I also remember trying to find my way around the city and looking for Army St. and never being able to find it because why… it had been RE-NAMED to Cesar Chavez. One can only smack herself in the head over it. Mind you, I am mexican and filipino.
Now, years later, my child is being challenged to write an essay in class as to WHY Mr. Chavez SHOULD HAVE a NATIONAL HOLIDAY in his honor.
Hummmm….. I don’t know how to feel about that. I’m not a politically involved (yes I meant involved, not evolved) person. Meaning, I can live a whole year without discussing politics and be happy with who I am. Sometimes, it’s just too much. But, what he did was important. I know that. But did it make an impact on my life? Not really. I don’t know alot about farming. I don’t know what farmers went through. Call me: OSTRICH. I’ve been able to live my whole life with my head in a bubble or more importantly, with my head in the whole in the ground.
I’ve managed to come out a fairly sane person, considering how politically handicapped I am and how very oblivious to everything around me.
I find it hard to believe that my child even has enough information or the education to write this essay. I say this because I know I haven’t sat down with her and discussed the life and times of Cesar. She herself has never taken even a course that discusses the man. It ought to be an interesting essay when she’s done. I worry that I’ve sheltered her a bit too much. And then I say to myself — self, you’re doing what’s best for her. If she’s interested in a subject, she will be able to look into it and further her education in that subject.
If she turns out to not be interested in any particular part of a subject after it’s been introduced, well, then so be it.
Let’s keep our fingers crossed that she gains enlightenment where ever she needs it and that she’s content with the knowledge.
{ March 22, 2008 @ 12:48 pm }
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{ Tags: car crash, children, coma, death, laws, life, random, safety, teenagers, thoughts, writings }
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It’s amazing. We have laws in effect for a reason. Case in point — California. Teens that get their license are restricted from carrying other teens/juveniles in cars they are driving UNLESS there is a license adult in the vehicle for at least 6 months. Does anyone know why? I came to that conclusion a long time.
Here’s the basics. If the teen with the license is driving like an ass, why submit more of our youth to possible injury or death? we all know that good kids that associate with a bad crowd can sometimes end up in trouble with that bad crowd. It gets worse in a car.
I lost at least 5 friends in 2 years thanks to driving situations where one friend was a passenger when our other friend was the driver. Said driver was irresponsible and wrapped or rolled the car.
Oh, we should know better sure. Why should the parents of the driver plead with us to go easy on their child? And they state, please go easy on my child. But, if you know your child is just a child, why did you sign off on them getting their driver’s license? If your child is old enough to drive, then your child should be held accountable for their driving actions. I cannot, as much as I would have liked to, to go easy on your child and on my friend who killed my friend by their irresponsible driving. They knew how they should drive. They knew what the rules were.
This goes back to my feelings on the one gal who was 19 and got drunk. She’s dead now.
But last month in my home town, a teenager wrapped his car around the same intersection that I lost several friends at. And it was illegal for him to be taking friends with him to school. His parents should have reminded him. The parents of the friends should have told their own children, no, you cannot ride with so and so because it is illegal. Plus, they should have said, you don’t want your friend getting in trouble with the law because of you, do you?
So many things. The driver turned out OK. But one is dead. Another in a coma. how painful for my old community. How painful for that child, the parents and the students in the community that are feeling this loss.
It was preventable. I hope the 17 year old student is held accountable. I hope he does time for vehicular manslaughter. I hope that he does time for child endangerment and wreckless driving. I hope, that some day, he is able to reconcile his actions and judgement and once released to life outside of jail or prison that he will make better choices. I hope that he does not get into drugs or drinking and I hope that he will be safe within the confines of jail/prison.
It’s not hateful of me to say so.
If people tell their children, that friends don’t let friends drive drunk. Don’t get into the car with someone who’s been drinking. Don’t get into the car of stranger. Don’t pick up hitchhikers…. then for the love of our children, teach them that following rules, no matter how trivial they may seem, may actually be in their best interest.
Would it have killed him or his friends to wait another 5 months before driving them around or getting in his car — for something other than a medical emergency — NOOOOO.
But it did kill someone and seriously injured another because they didn’t wait.
The life they couldn’t wait to live has now been ended and will forever remain changed.
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